I wish that without me your heart would break.

Hi, I'm tired.
I'm really really tired.
So I will make this fast.

Ok. So. From now on, I will try REALLY REALLY HARD to not be such a big baby and try REALLY REALLY HARD to understand what is going on.
Ok.
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Ok. I don't know what to do. OH RIGHT. There is nothing I can do.
Ok. Ok ok. So, Cat. Your dreams have been smashed. So what. Get over it.
Ready. GO.GO. GO. GO. GOGOGOGOGOGOGO. Yeah it's not working. BUT. I am still trying. REALLY REALLY HARD. Remember that.

Buh.
I'm not happy anymore.

I'M TRYING.
(but, there is a chance. let it go. whatever happens will happen. focus on cat.)
Ok.
I give up trying to make myself feel better tonight.
OK.